rainbows & symbols

I wrote this as a letter to a friend tonight:

On one of my lists today someone posted a link to a piece on the rainbow bridge. http://www.crystalinks.com/rainbows.html

Part of the quote that came with the link:
>they will learn to live again as Brothers and Sisters of the Earth. They will be called "Warriors of the Rainbow", protectors of the environment.<

I have identified with the rainbow warrior before, although had not heard it presented in the way it was here - I have heard rainbow warrior described more as similar to the rune Tiw "spiritual warrior". Tiw was my first major connection - the spiritual warrior... it was the first identity that struck me deeply... struck me as my purpose or mission. That was around the time I first walked in.

Anyway, when I read the article from the link, a thought came to me... I wonder if this is why I love tie-dye clothes, and anything that comes in multicolor/ rainbow colors? Could it be because of my connection to rainbow warrior? You should see my closet! What a riot of color! *tee hee*

Also, as I read the article mentioned above, there was a sub-link explaining "twin flame".
http://www.crystalinks.com/twinflames.html

Remember that I mentioned that during my massage I had the vision of Jim, and the thought that he was me... and that he was my twin flame? The link described our "twin flame" as the other half of one's soul in the spirit realm. So I was using the term correctly... as in the vision, when I saw Jim, I realized he was me, and I thought to myself, ah ha! That was why I loved him so much, and why we were able to share such deep aspects of ourselves... more than I ever have been able to share with any other person... because we were pieces of the same soul!!

From the twin flame link:
"Creation is linked to the color frequency BLUE as that is the color of electricity. One day you will rejoin your Twin Flame and you will spiral out in the color BLUE."

My favorite color (other than rainbow) is blue... and for years when I did shielding, my shield was blue (it's now rainbow). I was taught that shielding is just a strengthening of our own aura... so my aura is/was mainly blue (hence my indigo nature).

I have also considered myself to have a very masculine nature for most of my life... it was around the time I walked in that I began to accept my feminine mature... and it was around that same time I learned shielding and began to see my blue aura... which from the passage above would imply that I have already merged both male and female aspects, and this is why my predominant energy color is blue.

It does make me wonder if all indigos have merged both aspects... and if we have, then how can a twin flame be external?

This then leads me to wonder if the idea of having a multi-part soul is actually valid (something I did not believe was possible)... because how can I have merged both aspects of myself and still have Jim be a part of me? And perhaps still have a twin flame in the spirit world? Or is it possible to merge with it in 3D and have both halves here?

Lots to ponder.

Mostly these things just explain symbols I've already seen. I'm not sure if that helps me to understand anything better... but maybe it's just that such explanations and synchronicities are markers along the path to let me know I'm headed in the right direction?

One other interesting connection hit me today. I went to an SCA event, the Medieval Religions Symposium. A one point I betgan to think of angels... there was a workshop on Sephardic music... I thought this meant angelic music (seraphim) but instead it turned out to be music that was Jewish (don't remember the root language connection...)

As I sat there again in a room full of people feeling invisible... unnoticed... I remembered the thought I had a few months ago about being a "watcher"... and about that being one of the choirs of angles... and about the experience I recently had of feeling my own angelic wings... and put the two together... so perhaps I really am an angel - of the choir of watchers... for certainly it seems that more often than not I am here to observe, and I mainly work alone with my own path... I don't often feel I am here to "help" others or that my mission has much to do with others... I know that I help others along the way, but that tends to be a byproduct, and not the focus or intent.

So many symbols coming together today... yet again another sign that I seem to be integrating all things... for when I had the experience of my guide being me, of Jim being me, of the massage lady being me... these were experiences of truth... these were experiences outside of intellect... they were an experience of what truly is... that I am all things.

More and more moments of this experience of wholeness have been happening... perhaps I am getting closer to fully experiencing my oneness with creation... full time... even though I am in 3D... This is the pure joy and enlightenment I think that we all seek... how exciting to think that I might be able to hold that experience permanently in 3D!!

I hope this all makes some sense... it's late and I'm tired, but I wanted to share all this before I forgot it... hope I haven't gotten too weird. *heh* It's so hard to talk about these things the further I go along the path, because it comes to a place where it seems that to express what my true experience is - is to say things that can come across as conceited... but the thing is, it isn't pride I feel.. I don't feel I am better than another, for I know that we all have this within us... I think it's more that I want to express my excitement at finally reaching the truth, and shedding the sadness and depression that has plagued me for so long in 3D.

Thanks for being in my life, and thanks for hearing me.
Much love and blessings,
Aurora